Myspace is dead.

Yes yes, reunited and it feels so good. Summer goals and plans, fun fun. But there's plenty of time for all that. What I'm thinking about, is myspace.

Dead as a doornail you could call it, whatever that means, because in the social networking world facebook owns. Sadly. And while facebook in many ways seems simpler and more practical and just better for current needs, myspace once thrived and served as an integral cog in the highschool machine of my life.

It's funny how I can flip through just the pages of comments, of little blurbs of nothing conversations, and I can understand whats being said without my half of it. It's even funnier what's being said, and who's saying it. Just 9 pages of comments, and I can see pretty much my entire history of high school boys. From the simple flirts, to serious crushes, and even the evolution of relationships from better to worse and vice versa.

Here are just a few that made me smile, laugh and even cringe;

Moni¢a.

Dec 15, 2006 10:02 PM

aww, i feel so special. i'm one of your heroes. haha, hello emily.


paolo_angelo

Dec 20, 2006 12:00 PM

NAW MY DAD STILL TRIPPIN BOUT MY C'S AND I ALREADY SHOWED HIM THAT I RAISED ALL OF THEN TO B'S BUT HE BE ALL LIKE I HAVENT SEEN YOUR REPORT CARD.

paolo_angelo

Dec 20, 2006 12:21 PM

I COULD ASK HER THE FRIDAY SCHOOLS BACK.

What do you think this was in reference to? ;] Hahaha.

CJChris Arboleda

Jan 6, 2007 5:22 PM

hi

-.-

vj?![*C.O.B.*] [YFC]Vincent Arcega

Feb 1, 2007 8:10 PM

wsup?

-the guy with the small pe shirt


vj?![*C.O.B.*] [YFC]Vincent Arcega

Feb 6, 2007 10:03 PM

HAHA
mos def
i'll flash her
woot
haha
still mad like a rice cooker?


I don't know what this convo was about, but I like still mad as a rice cooker. Haha.

Danny

Mar 5, 2007 7:24 PM

i wasn't muggin you, that was me smiling GOSH. sighhh i never do,i just feel weird when i do it,espcailly you. =]


paolo_angelo

Mar 14, 2007 5:29 PM

Aww y am i sixth. I should be first. Take gabe out of there....


paolo_angelo

Mar 14, 2007 8:55 PM

But your not gabes first...and i gave u like 2000 dollars.


ryan

Apr 4, 2007 8:00 PM

HEY HEY

you better wait a gosh damn second there Emily you never told me where you were going!!JEEZE whats up with that!!yo!

>=.. well where ever your goin just make sure to come back!then get wasted with us but im sure you gonna do that already!
-comb you hair n brush your teeth
<3 you 2


ryan

May 2, 2007 7:26 PM

HAHA =P naw, Emily i love you ! u know just in a way thats not publicly shown to anyone! at all!
noo sit by me!
Gabe just told me today about it during track after i left with Long for sexy time with him n Adam!


vj?![*C.O.B.*] [YFC]Vincent Arcega

May 17, 2007 5:03 PM

hey you
what was wrong today?
you seemed sad
=[



vj?![*C.O.B.*] [YFC]Vincent Arcega

May 28, 2007 4:45 PM

Hey Emily=]
How are you?
We should hang out more often=].....
I think you're pretty cute.=]



AWWWW. I just read this one. Hehe. He was nice, huh?


~JustinJustin Penalosa

Oct 25, 2008 3:30 PM

just dance.
oh and you're cute :]



Ugh, aw? Lol.



Haha, alright. Ah, memories. Boys, boys, boys. Lol, well that is all.


F&A :]

cause of em's flip camera thingy...

-get a hard drive

someday...

soo HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY!!!

this is terry...im kinda boreed right now and ive been bugging her to do her stuff so yeah...the list

-oasis

-fafsa

-finish her paper thats due tomorrow :[

-pick up petroglyph cupcake

-cook more often

-clean her room cause she needs to do that x]

-stop shopping now...then explode in Taiwan

-cook more often..[im telling you, we can learn for next year]

-stop having weird dreams that she cant remember anyways

-take chinese over the summer....along with microbio with me ;]

-get new sheets

-Think about what I need for school next year

-Figure out what classes I should take next year

-do yoga

-put overwhelming amounts of cheerios into zip lock bags

-start on your college year scrapbook

-"Hrm.. find other life goals and longtime hobbies that can be productive"

this all? oh wells she can correct me later

Good, because I miss you too

Babysteps.

Complete my Oasis thing for school cus I was supposed to do that over break
Start on my "college years" scrapbook
Don't chicken out on driving
Pass my test
Clean my room
Do yoga again, more regularly
Return a bunch of stuff
Cut my hair
Stop having weird dreams that I can't remember anyway
I want new sheets
Think about what I need for school next year
Figure out what classes I should take next year
Take chinese [over the summer] and learn it!
Stop shopping so if I really do go to Taiwan, I can buy things ;]
Go back to Taiwan
Cook more often
FIND/ BUY BANANAGRAMS
Hang up pictures
Buy more photo collage frames
Frame puzzles
Hrm.. find other life goals and longtime hobbies that can be productive

2010.

So I realize that I completely skipped Christmas, and even though I have about half more of my break, I feel like it's approaching fast. I feel unprepared, yet I can't wait; I'm dreading it, yet I'm so bored. I also bought enough school supplies to last me my life, although I should probably get some pens and pencils cus I have no idea where I put them; damn it. So I'm wondering when this new year is gonna get good. Cus so far, I've just been really sick feeling, and I hate it. I was hoping that'd be the one thing I'd avoid since I went to the hospital for the first time last year a few days after my birthday. We'll see 300 something more days to go. My breaks been okay, I still hate thinking about the days where I've accomplished nothing, but some days I just can't find the energy to move. Right now, the idea of moving hurts; I am not feeling good right now. But I am thinking. I didn't even consider the idea of a resolution, but maybe I'll just make a list. A list of things I want to accomplish and need to accomplish, and instead of my normal lists like these, I'll include the things I'm afraid of taking on, or don't want to do. I'll include small things too just cus I haven't made one of these in a while, so I haven't done much this break.

2010:

Complete my Oasis thing for school cus I was supposed to do that over break
Start on my "college years" scrapbook
Don't chicken out on driving
Pass my test
Clean my room
Do yoga again, more regularly
Return a bunch of stuff
Cut my hair
Stop having weird dreams that I can't remember anyway
I want new sheets
Think about what I need for school next year
Figure out what classes I should take next year
Take chinese [over the summer] and learn it!
Stop shopping so if I really do go to Taiwan, I can buy things ;]
Go back to Taiwan
Cook more often
FIND/ BUY BANANAGRAMS
Hang up pictures
Buy more photo collage frames
Frame puzzles
Hrm.. find other life goals and longtime hobbies that can be productive

Alright, that's all I got for now, it's a pretty lame list but I can't think of anything really crazy or fun that I can accomplish in a year right now. I'll think about it more later. Anyways, the point of this post was that I was just thinking about younger kids these days. They seem so old, and I wonder if we seemed that way just a few years ago. I read what they post on facebook and I think, were we like that? In some ways I say yes, and still for some reason, mostly because I don't think I've changed and matured all of a sudden, that we weren't that bad? Not to say that they're out of control, but I dunno. And were we that consumed by the internet? We still are now, but FML and youtube vids and facebook, has become such a staple in like the middle schools, it's like to be away from that for a week would be death. I'm not saying we're much better, but I didn't die when I didn't have a laptop, I just watched a lot of television. I wonder if the world has to end in two years cus we've just gone off the map. But in any case, whether we were like that, better or worse, I still find myself to have been pretty lame. And I don't even want to read what I posted on this blog a few months ago, let alone read old blogs from my xanga years ago. Is it just me? I just want to know, is there ever going to be a point in my life where I'm not gonna look back and go, wow I was so stupid. Because I'm pretty sure by the time I'm middle-aged and thinking back to my youth, I'll think "I used to think I was having epiphanies about life, hah. Stupid." Even a few years from now, I'll think back to me now and say man I had a lot of lame drama. It's weird and kinda sad that I will never live up to future me's expectations. Mmm.. I dunno. I'm tired now. Goodnight.