Babysteps.

Complete my Oasis thing for school cus I was supposed to do that over break
Start on my "college years" scrapbook
Don't chicken out on driving
Pass my test
Clean my room
Do yoga again, more regularly
Return a bunch of stuff
Cut my hair
Stop having weird dreams that I can't remember anyway
I want new sheets
Think about what I need for school next year
Figure out what classes I should take next year
Take chinese [over the summer] and learn it!
Stop shopping so if I really do go to Taiwan, I can buy things ;]
Go back to Taiwan
Cook more often
FIND/ BUY BANANAGRAMS
Hang up pictures
Buy more photo collage frames
Frame puzzles
Hrm.. find other life goals and longtime hobbies that can be productive

2010.

So I realize that I completely skipped Christmas, and even though I have about half more of my break, I feel like it's approaching fast. I feel unprepared, yet I can't wait; I'm dreading it, yet I'm so bored. I also bought enough school supplies to last me my life, although I should probably get some pens and pencils cus I have no idea where I put them; damn it. So I'm wondering when this new year is gonna get good. Cus so far, I've just been really sick feeling, and I hate it. I was hoping that'd be the one thing I'd avoid since I went to the hospital for the first time last year a few days after my birthday. We'll see 300 something more days to go. My breaks been okay, I still hate thinking about the days where I've accomplished nothing, but some days I just can't find the energy to move. Right now, the idea of moving hurts; I am not feeling good right now. But I am thinking. I didn't even consider the idea of a resolution, but maybe I'll just make a list. A list of things I want to accomplish and need to accomplish, and instead of my normal lists like these, I'll include the things I'm afraid of taking on, or don't want to do. I'll include small things too just cus I haven't made one of these in a while, so I haven't done much this break.

2010:

Complete my Oasis thing for school cus I was supposed to do that over break
Start on my "college years" scrapbook
Don't chicken out on driving
Pass my test
Clean my room
Do yoga again, more regularly
Return a bunch of stuff
Cut my hair
Stop having weird dreams that I can't remember anyway
I want new sheets
Think about what I need for school next year
Figure out what classes I should take next year
Take chinese [over the summer] and learn it!
Stop shopping so if I really do go to Taiwan, I can buy things ;]
Go back to Taiwan
Cook more often
FIND/ BUY BANANAGRAMS
Hang up pictures
Buy more photo collage frames
Frame puzzles
Hrm.. find other life goals and longtime hobbies that can be productive

Alright, that's all I got for now, it's a pretty lame list but I can't think of anything really crazy or fun that I can accomplish in a year right now. I'll think about it more later. Anyways, the point of this post was that I was just thinking about younger kids these days. They seem so old, and I wonder if we seemed that way just a few years ago. I read what they post on facebook and I think, were we like that? In some ways I say yes, and still for some reason, mostly because I don't think I've changed and matured all of a sudden, that we weren't that bad? Not to say that they're out of control, but I dunno. And were we that consumed by the internet? We still are now, but FML and youtube vids and facebook, has become such a staple in like the middle schools, it's like to be away from that for a week would be death. I'm not saying we're much better, but I didn't die when I didn't have a laptop, I just watched a lot of television. I wonder if the world has to end in two years cus we've just gone off the map. But in any case, whether we were like that, better or worse, I still find myself to have been pretty lame. And I don't even want to read what I posted on this blog a few months ago, let alone read old blogs from my xanga years ago. Is it just me? I just want to know, is there ever going to be a point in my life where I'm not gonna look back and go, wow I was so stupid. Because I'm pretty sure by the time I'm middle-aged and thinking back to my youth, I'll think "I used to think I was having epiphanies about life, hah. Stupid." Even a few years from now, I'll think back to me now and say man I had a lot of lame drama. It's weird and kinda sad that I will never live up to future me's expectations. Mmm.. I dunno. I'm tired now. Goodnight.