It's been far too long.

I suck! I know. I'm awful with journal-ing and chronicling my life. I just never feel like I have anything worthwhile to say or that I'm rambling. But what the hell, it's not like I'm writing a memoir. A lots changed in the past year, and more importantly a lots changed with me.

I'm single again, technically? Haha. But I don't know if I'm taking very good advantage of that. Yes there's the shameless flirting, the batted eyelashes, the added accessories for those outfits where I know I look good. But I don't really feel like I'm in the right mindset? No one's making me jump out of my seat and drooool.

I've recently dropped a lot on my plate. I realize more than ever now that I have a good sense of what I want to do with my life and where I want to go. I realize that I'm capable of doing what I want and doing it well. I'm so excited to develop myself further because I just can't wait for all that I'm planning to do.

Recently I joined the FNA club at SFSU. It was pretty random, but I went to our non-profit fair and I checked out all our booths and got as much info as I could. I ended up going to the FNA meeting, and applying for the Assistant Events Coordinator position. And people actually voted for me, because I got it! It was so weird to feel like people actually believed that I had the experience and passion to do a good job over this other girl who actually had more experience with fashion internships in general. It's a little stressful, and I'm already constantly obsessing over it. But I'm so excited.

Today I had lunch with Angela Slate formerly known as Miss Rosario, and she asked me to intern with her and get experience with helping her with her business and helping to plan her yearbook camp next fall.

On October 3rd, I'll be going to the L.E.A.D Orientation for FNA, but also going out into the city later that night to a Meals on Wheels orientation, because I decided to start volunteering as a friendly visitor/ grocery shopper.

Oh, and last thing. I registered to attend an NYU seminar in the city on the 12th for future applicants.

So maybe I'm not taking full advantage of the benefits of being flirty and reckless and single, but I feel like I suddenly have all these opportunities to accomplish all that I want to do and I'm actually going for it. I'm starting to feel like myself again, taking time to think of all these things I want to do, except this time I have no reservations, nothing holding me back. I know what I want to do. I know where I want to go. I'm ready to do this, and I've never been more excited!